Forgiveness

I Only Had Fire

I Only Had Fire

I Only Had Fire

After forgiveness has run out.

I write these words from a place beyond holiness, a place scarred by survival and hardened by experience. Forgiveness, I've learned, is frequently demanded by those untouched by the pain they ask others to forgive. They speak of mercy from their pulpits, whisper grace in well-lit halls, yet cling tightly to judgment like lovers afraid of abandonment.

I am here to truth: this Gospel is not for them.

This Gospel belongs to those who remain wounded, restless, forever marked.

Tomorrow, this Gospel of the Unforgiven begins, a series that will unfold over ten essays. These stories are not confessions or pleas for redemption; they are testimonies, voices lifted clearly and without apology, born from lives spent at the fringes, truths concealed behind polite smiles and obedient silence. These essays rise from the scars left by judgment, from hearts battered yet resiliently beating, stubbornly alive.

We require a sacred text that recognizes us fully, not as penitents desperate for cleansing, but as individuals rich in complexity, dignity, and resilience. We stood trembling at temple gates, turned away because our truths were too bitter, our scars too apparent. We have been told repeatedly that our redemption can only be found in quiet submission, silent acceptance, and erasure of the self that dared question, dared challenge, dared breathe freely.

Our forgiveness is ours alone to grant. It has been earned quietly, courageously, in shadows, where strength is discovered unseen and unheard. It is fierce, complicated, defiant, and refuses to conform to simplistic morality. Our forgiveness holds every injustice endured, every betrayal survived. It demands acknowledgment, not of guilt but of glory. Glory persisting despite predictions of ruin. Glory refusing shame’s cloak.

This series will be a testament to lives lived openly, honestly, beyond absolution, beyond moral simplicity. It will speak directly to those who have been discarded, condemned, or simply forgotten by moral arbiters. We will address our wounds openly, not for sympathy, but to celebrate our unbroken humanity, our defiance, our refusal to disappear quietly.

We have walked paths unrecognized by saints, carried truths unwelcome in sanctuaries, yet we stand luminous and unapologetic. We speak not to seek absolution from altars, but to affirm that our fractured, resilient lives are sufficient gospel.

This Gospel begins tomorrow, from a place beyond their forgiveness, where love is rough hewn, redemption painstakingly earned, and faith emerges fiercely, unstoppable, brilliant as dawn.