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Before We Lose Our Souls

Before We Lose Our Souls

Before We Lose Our Souls

It Speaks

There’s a moment that comes to every parent, usually in the dead middle of the night. You’re standing in the doorway of your child’s bedroom, watching them sleep. The nightlight casts shadows across their face. Their chest rises and falls with the kind of peace that only the innocent know. And you think…I would burn the world down before I let anyone hurt you.

I have three daughters. One of them is two years old. And I would. I would burn this world to ash to save her. I would tear down every institution, every palace, every monument to power if it meant she never knew the kind of evil that lived in Jeffrey Epstein’s world. I wouldn’t hesitate. I wouldn’t weight the cost. I wouldn’t think twice.

That instinct has nothing to do with politics. It isn’t partisan. It’s the oldest law written into a father’s heart.

So why, when we talk about the Epstein files, do we immediately retreat into our corners? Why do we make it about red versus blue, about which team can claim the moral high ground while pointing fingers at the other?

The names in those documents, some confirmed, some alleged, some still hidden behind redactions and legal maneuvering, those names belong to the powerful. To the connected. To men who moved through the world with the kind of immunity that money and influence provide. And every single one of those names represents a choice. A choice to look at a child, someone’s daughter, someone’s two-year-old who grew up too fast in all the wrong ways, and see not innocence to protect, but innocence to consume.

This isn’t about politics. This is about what we’ve allowed to fester in the shadows while we argued about everything else.

For years, people knew. Not everyone. Not even most people. But enough people. Enough people saw Jeffrey Epstein’s empire of exploitation and made calculations. They weighed their careers against their consciences. They measured their access to power against the lives of teenage girls, girls who were somebody’s daughters, who had parents who tucked them in at night, who had futures that should have been full of first kisses and prom dresses and college acceptances, not trauma and courtrooms and having to convince the world that yes, it really happened, yes, it was really that bad.

That silence was bipartisan.

The client lists and flight logs read like a who’s who of American influence from both sides of every aisle. Business titans and politicians, celebrities and academics, people we’ve celebrated and people we’ve elected. The ideology didn’t matter. The party affiliation was irrelevant. What mattered was the protection that power provided, and the willingness to value that protection over the screaming, obvious, undeniable truth. Children were being hurt.

I’m not even going to type their names here. The people charged, the people implicated, the people who should be in prison cells instead of boardrooms and mansions. They don’t deserve the dignity of me typing their names. They don’t deserve another second of our attention beyond the attention required to bring them to justice. Not even the breath it would take to utter their tainted names

But the victims do.

The girls whose names we’ll never know because they were too afraid to come forward. The ones who testified and had their lives torn apart in depositions. The ones who are still carrying this trauma decades later. The ones who didn’t survive it. They deserve our attention. They deserve our rage. They deserve our commitment to making sure this never happens again.

We can argue all day about tax policy and foreign wars, about the size of government and the meaning of freedom. These are important debates. These are the conversations our democracy requires and deserves.

But this? This should have been the one thing that transcended all of that. This should have been the line we all agreed must never be crossed.

Instead, we got compartmentalization. We got whataboutism. We got “but what about the names on that side?” as if trafficking in children becomes somehow more forgivable if the other team did it too.

No.

I don’t care who is in those files. I don’t care if it’s a Republican or a Democrat or my neighbor or my family member or the guy I had a beer with last week. I don’t care if it’s someone I voted for or someone whose movies I loved or someone whose company made me money. I don’t care if exposing them costs my side the next election or hands a victory to people I can’t stand on every other issue under the sun.

Burn them all.

This cannot stand. It has stood too long already.

My daughter is learning to talk. She says “Dada” and “more” and she’s starting to string together little sentences that don’t quite make sense but are the most beautiful things I’ve ever heard. She trusts everyone. She runs up to strangers at the park and offers them her toys. She doesn’t know yet that the world has monsters in it.

Those girls in the Epstein files, they were protected once too. They had parents who thought they were keeping them safe. They had fathers who would have burned the world down for them if they’d known. If they’d been told. If the systems we built to protect children had actually worked instead of protecting predators.

Those girls, and they were girls, not women, not “young women,” but children, they didn’t choose their circumstances. Some of them came from poverty. Some of them came from broken homes. Some of them were just in the wrong place at the wrong time, noticed by the wrong person. They were targeted, groomed, trafficked, and used by people who believed themselves untouchable. And for a long time, those people were right to believe it.

The files are out now. Some of them. Not all. And we’ve already made it a game. Each side grabbing the names that help their narrative and ignoring the ones that don’t. We’re more interested in scoring points than seeking justice. We’re more concerned with protecting our tribe than protecting the next generation of children who might fall into the hands of the next predator.

It’s tabloid fodder now. It’s late night monologue material. It’s something we argue about on Twitter for a few days before moving on to the next manufactured crisis, the next distraction, the next excuse to not look directly at the horror of what happened and demand something actually be done about it.

Where is our anger?

Where is our justified, righteous, burn-it-all-down rage?

Where is the justice?

Not the performative outrage we trot out for our political enemies. Not the selective moral indignation we deploy when it’s convenient. Real anger. The kind that doesn’t dissipate when the news cycle shifts. The kind that doesn’t give a damn about party affiliation or political calculation. The kind that says enough is enough and actually means it.

We had more sustained fury about a football player kneeling during the anthem. We spent more energy being outraged about who uses which bathroom. We burned more collective rage on celebrity Twitter feuds than we have on the systematic abuse of children by some of the most powerful people in the world.

And where the fuck are our representatives in all of this? The people we elected to protect us, to seek justice, to be our voice when we can’t be heard? They’re playing games. Political football with the lives of children. Standing in front of microphones with their carefully practiced expressions of concern, delivering their focus-grouped speeches about how “deeply troubled” they are, how they’re “calling for answers,” how they “won’t rest until justice is served.”

And then they go back to their offices and do absolutely nothing.

It’s despicable showmanship. Performative bullshit of the highest order. They’ll weaponize these files against their political enemies while quietly burying the names on their own side. They’ll demand investigations they have no intention of funding. They’ll hold hearings designed to generate soundbites, not subpoenas. They’ll tweet their outrage while taking donations from the same networks of power that protected Epstein in the first place.

Do they think we’re idiots? Do they think we can’t see through this charade? Do they think we don’t notice that even the systematic rape of children gets turned into another episode of their grotesque theater?

It should be calls. Thousands of them. Millions of them. It should be emails flooding their inboxes until their servers crash. It should be letters piling up in their offices until they can’t walk through the door. It should be constituents showing up at town halls demanding answers, demanding action, demanding they do their goddamn jobs.

It should be: DO SOMETHING. Not “investigate the other guy.” Not “protect our team.” DO SOMETHING. Release every file. Prosecute every name. Dismantle every system that enabled this. Stop protecting the powerful and start protecting children.

And if you can’t do that? If you’re too compromised, too connected, too corrupted by the same machinery that fed Epstein his victims? Then get out of the way. Because we will do it ourselves. We will vote you out. We will primary you. We will make your name synonymous with cowardice and complicity. We will make sure that when our children ask us what we did, we can tell them we didn’t wait for permission from people who value their careers more than justice.

This isn’t a request anymore. This is a demand. Do your job or lose it. Protect children or admit you never cared in the first place. Stop treating this like another political game and start treating it like what it is. A moral crisis that transcends every other issue you claim to care about.

I can’t pretend that your carefully worded statements mean anything when children are still being trafficked, when predators are still being protected, when the systems you’re supposed to oversee are still prioritizing power over innocence.

Do something. Or we will remember your silence when it mattered most. I will remember your silence.

That should horrify us about who we’ve become.

There will be a next one. You know that, right? There’s always a next one. Power doesn’t just corrupt, it metastasizes. And when we signal that certain people are too important, too connected, too useful to be held accountable, we’re not just failing the victims. We’re sending an engraved invitation to every predator smart enough to make himself indispensable to the right people.

I look at my youngest daughter and I wonder what I’m going to tell them when they’re old enough to understand. When they google Jeffrey Epstein and read about the parties and the island and the private jets. When she learns that hundreds of people knew and almost nobody did anything. When she asks me why.

What am I supposed to say? That we cared more about our political teams than we did about girls just like them? That we were willing to overlook rape if it came from someone on our side? That protecting children mattered right up until it became politically inconvenient?

I’d honestly rather die than tell my daughters that.

What would it actually look like if we meant it when we said we cared about children? Not as a campaign slogan. Not as a weapon to use against people we already hated. But as a real, non-negotiable commitment.

It would mean demanding full transparency. Every name. Every connection. Every person who enabled it, participated in it, or looked the other way while it happened. No redactions to protect the powerful. No sealed records to spare the comfortable. No backroom deals. No statutes of limitation on our collective conscience.

It would mean being willing to watch our own heroes burn. Because some of those names are going to be people we loved. People we defended. People we made excuses for because they were on our team. And we’re going to have to decide if our loyalty to them is stronger than our loyalty to every father who’s ever held his two-year-old and sworn he’d die before he let anyone hurt her.

It would mean acknowledging that this isn’t about one sick billionaire and his island. It’s about the entire rotten system that protected him. The prosecutors who gave him a joke of a plea deal. The media outlets that soft-pedaled the story. The friends who swore they didn’t know what was happening in the rooms next door. The politicians who took his money and his counsel. The universities that took his donations and looked the other way. The lawyers who buried evidence. The judges who sealed records.

In 2008, he got thirteen months in a county jail with work release. Going to his office twelve hours a day.

He got out. Did it again. And again. Was arrested again in 2019. Never faced a jury. Never had to answer for what he did.

Those girls got life sentences.

We don’t negotiate with terrorists. That’s what we say. That’s America.

But if you’re a child rapist with the right connections? Then we’ll talk. Then we’ll make deals. Then we’ll find accommodation.

This is what we’ve become. A country that will go to war over principles but won’t go to war for children being raped in mansions and on islands by men whose names we all know.

Those girls deserved prosecutors who fought for them like they were going to war. They deserved a system that valued their innocence more than it valued protecting powerful men. They deserved adults who would burn down every career, every reputation, every institution necessary to get them justice.

Instead, they got thirteen months and a country that moved on to the next news cycle.

All of it. Burn all of it down.

I think about those girls constantly. The ones who found the courage to come forward knowing they’d be called liars. Knowing they’d be attacked. Knowing tabloids would print their names and strangers on the internet would dissect their entire lives looking for reasons to dismiss them. Knowing that half the country would defend their abusers based solely on political affiliation.

I think about their fathers, and what it must be like to realize you couldn’t protect your daughter from this. That all your strength, all your love, all your promises weren’t enough against the machinery of wealth and power that fed on innocence like a parasite.

I even feel dirty writing this. Because I write generally hopeful, nonpolitical things. I don’t write things like this. It feels wrong for me to ask you to listen to me when it’s their screams you should be hearing.

But maybe that’s exactly why I have to write it. Because hope requires honesty first. Because refusing to look at the darkness doesn’t make it go away. Because those screams have been ignored for too long by people far more qualified than me to do something about it, and maybe the only thing worse than feeling dirty writing about it is staying silent while it continues.

My daughter won’t stay two forever. She’ll grow up. She’ll learn that the world is beautiful and terrible, often in the same breath. She’ll learn that there are people who will try to hurt her and people who will fight to keep her safe.

And one day she’ll ask me what I did when the names came out. When we had the files. When we knew. When we could have demanded accountability and refused to accept anything less.

I need to be able to look her in the eyes and tell her I didn’t flinch. I didn’t make excuses. I didn’t protect monsters because they wore the right color tie or said the right things about taxes. I didn’t fail her the way a generation of adults failed those other daughters.

So here’s where I stand, and you can stand with me or against me, whatever.

Every name in those files deserves investigation. Every single one. I don’t care what side they’re on. I don’t care how much I agreed with them on other issues. I don’t care if it hurts the causes I believe in or helps the people I oppose. Child rape isn’t a partisan issue, and if you’re making it one, you need to take a hard look at what you’ve become and who you are as a person.

The full files need to be released. All of them. Not the redacted versions. Not the sanitized summaries. Everything. Let the chips fall where they may. Let careers end. Let legacies burn. Let the comfortable become uncomfortable. Let the powerful learn they’re not untouchable after all.

And we need to stay angry. Not for a news cycle. Not until the next scandal distracts us. Until there’s actual justice. Until people are in prison. Until the systems that enabled this are dismantled. Until we’ve made it clear that you can’t buy your way out of this, you can’t lawyer your way out of this, you can’t rely on your connections to save you from this.

This is the line. This is where we stop retreating into our partisan corners and remember we’re supposed to be human beings first. This is where we prove that some things still matter more than politics.

Or it’s where we admit we’ve lost our souls entirely.

I know which side I’m on. I knew it the moment I held my daughter for the first time and made her a promise I intend to keep. The only question left is whether there are enough of us who still remember what it means to keep promises to children.

I hope to God there are. Because if we can’t get this right, if we can’t unite around protecting children from predators regardless of how powerful those predators are, how connected they are, how familiar they are, then we don’t deserve the country we claim to love. We don’t deserve the children we claim to protect.

We don’t deserve any of it.